I'm taking a chance and putting up a new ticker because I think it might be a little counter productive to still have my ttc ticker up. Maybe this will make things more real and even more important go more smoothly than last time. I tried to pick a lucky ticker. Let's hope it works. I would actually like to put up a second ticker to a countdown to 16 weeks, which is when the hubby and I plan to tell people. And not a second sooner. We both agree that going through and calling or emailing individual family and friends about the bad news last time was one of the worst things ever. I personally would rather not have other people know and deal with the grief on my own without the knowing worried glances from family and the uncomfortableness from friends.
Hell, if I could I wouldn't tell anyone until I was 9 months and ready to deliver. "Baby? What baby? I mean I know I've gained weight but geeze it's a little rude to assume I'm pregnant isn't it?" is what I imagine saying at work. Similar to the movie "knocked.up". Where she was in complete denial until her bosses called her in. As a matter of fact if I do or rather WHEN I do get past 16 weeks I think maybe I'll just see how long I can go without telling anyone beyond close friends and family. It might be fun.
Anyhow, it's business as usual around here with constant concern that my breasts aren't hurting enough and constant t.p checks for spotting. I'm taking my progesterone religiously and nuclear war couldn't prevent me from taking it each morning. I question how much it's doing since some of it does leak out. But I gather that the professionals already thought of this and have made adjustments. Oh well. I can't do it all.
I haven't really felt any type of nausea yet but then again last time that didn't start until later and of course we know how that ended. What does one do when all one has to compare to is a non-viable pregnancy? Should I compare? Or not? I know they say all pregnancies are different. But my body is the same...so wouldn't I react some what the same?
Tomorrow's New Year's Eve and we aren't doing anything special. Just going out to dinner with a couple and then we were planning on going to see a movie or going over to my friend's sister n law's for a gathering, which I hope I don't have to go to because then I'm going to have to do the whole no champagne for me and everyone is going to be questioning it. I hate that.
I guess the grass isn't any greener on this side either. Grrrr. When do I get to the green grass?
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I like to think you have hit the green grass right now...you are just keeping it your secret for now (16 weeks is an excellent time to tell, I think)and it is unfamiliar territory so at the moment you are a little hesitant of enjoying the green grass...
Seriously, congrats tenfold. You have many days to go and, not speaking from an ounce of experience, but...I think each day that you go to sleep...be grateful for how that day went and look forward to the next healthy, growing and beautiful day. I think this would help you remain "in the moment".
Now when I am finally pregnant and a little scared, etc...you must remind me of exactly what I just told you!
Thanks Meg :) I certainly will!
I think it is hard not to compare, but even with healthy pregnancies they are different (so I have heard).
Tell people when you are ready. I didn't tell people at my work until I already knew the gender. Some people didn't even know until about a month before I delivered.
wow not until about a month before you delivered? That's amazing! That would be awesome!
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