Thank you again everyone for thoughtfully posting advice in my comments area. Rachel I can't believe you were so together for listing every single detail about the days leading up to your miscarriage. It was extremely helpful to hear your experience and I'm sure it has helped so many other bloggers reading. Since mine was quite a surprise and my body had not given me a clue that something was wrong, I don't even know if there would be anything for me to have written about last time. Maybe this one will be different.
And thanks Meg for letting me know about the drug they offer. I've heard a little about that but don't think I read a lot on it. I'm wondering if this will be an option my obgyn will offer me this time. I really think she suggested the D&C last time because I had been carrying it for awhile already and nothing was happening.
At some moments I feel miscarrying at home would be so much easier and other times I'm just scared to death. Honestly I can't even believe I'm sitting here on a Saturday night pondering the right way to miscarry. Joy. Anyways I guess we'll be able to tell more on Monday, if the beta test results are back.
So far everything I'm reading about my low hcg points to a chemical pregnancy but I just don't understand why my body hasn't given it up yet, since I've read that chemical pregnancy miscarriages often happen extremely early like 4-5 weeks and now I'm already on 6 weeks. Hmmm. very strange.
Any how today again I've had no spotting and no cramping. Just a few twingy pains down there but nothing major. My breasts felt a spark of tenderness throughout the day and last night I had the worst night sweats ever. But I know too well that this is probably just (what little I have) hormones still in my body. Although I have to admit I've had several daydreams that I'm the one woman out there that will carry a healthy child even with a low hcg. Or that by some freak chance my blood levels were incorrectly reported. Like the person recording them was interrupted for a second and was asked what he wanted for lunch and he forgot to put like 3 numbers following my first two or something. Ha!
Anyways today was a rather busy day. My husband had me out all day doing all kinds of stuff (I think to make sure I have my mind off this) and we had fun doing some shopping, walking around looking at fancy houses in Beverly Hills and some other places we hadn't been in a while. So I'm feeling pretty okay about things right at this instant. I pretty much feel I can't really do anything about this and was is meant to happen will. Of course this will probably all be down the drain tomorrow as soon as I have time to feel sorry for myself.
Also in case anyone was wondering I did try going to the pharmacy but he never showed. Which means that I will need to pick the progesterone up first thing Monday morning and administer it at work. Joy. Can't wait until Monday is finished. Hell how about all next week.
Speaking of next week, I've already decided that I'm taking next Friday off and calling in sick. The hubby has moved around his work schedule so he can attend the ultrasound with me and be there for any advice the doctor has. I'm calling this "Operation Miscarriage" I just know that there's no way this time I can go back to work after hearing (and seeing) once again that my pregnancy was lost. At least this time I wouldn't have seen a heart beat already. Last time I swear I don't even know how I got it together, returned to work the same day and led and attended like 5 meetings later that day. If anyone had known that I just found out I lost my pregnancy at what was already supposed to be 12 weeks they would have thought I was crazy. Inside I was a basket case. And I intend to be alone in my home comfortable and a basket case this time. Hell it's right before a 3 day weekend anyway we'll probably get out early.
And by the way everyone, thanks for not thinking my "emergency kit" was crazy. My husband found the urine container in a bag in my purse but didn't ask what it was about. I know I seem like a sad case carrying around my "miscarriage" kit. But I just feel safer and in control more with it. It was also helpful to be reminded that a natural miscarriage will probably have a lot of warning before it happens. (I don't know why I thought that poof! one second I would be in a meeting and one second I would be miscarrying in the bathroom - although maybe that has happened to someone out there). And it's true if my doctor does give me the tablet drug to induce the miscarriage I can make sure all is ready at home. I wonder if I can take a tylenol with codeine at the same time with it. Hmmm. That would be lovely.
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Friday, January 11, 2008
Update
Thanks again everyone for all your comments. They were extremely helpful. I was wondering about the testing of the remaining pregnancy. I assumed it might be easier to test the remains after a d&c than if I were to bring anything in...I don't even know how I would need to preserve it or if the remains would even be useful. I just keep on thinking about that lady who got in trouble for freezing her fetus? Was that the story? If anyone has any advice on that I would love to hear it.
Anyways I soon realized after my last post that I very well may not be able to start a month after, depending upon my cycle and also as you guys pointed out my hcg level. Last time I didn't get that tested but I think I'll request one just to make sure I'm back down. Especially if I miscarry at home, which I think in that case my doctor would demand one and an ultra sound anyway just to make sure everything is out.
I completely agree about the whole chemical pregnancy and thought about that too and wondered if that was the case why wouldn't it have been done with already. Maybe the Progesterone is causing things to get out of whack? Who knows.
Anyways I definitely would do things differently next time and request blood tests from the beginning. I just wasn't really concerned this time about the hcg because last time my problem wasn't my hcg but rather my progesterone, which is why my ob suggested I start taking it as soon as I get a positive. But obviously every pregnancy is different. I know my ob would give me tests if I requested them. She's actually really great but this time somehow my GP got involved and obviously it's not really her area.
So here's the update thus far...
Got up this morning and I found a very very very small amount of brown spotting. So of course I thought I was doomed. Still no cramping. Throughout the entire day though not a spec more of spotting though...and some twinges here and there but no real cramping. Just in case I packed myself a little "emergency" package of a towel, unused urine sampling cup (don't know how I got this but I had an extra lying around the house) for any remains, a plastic spoon in case I had to scoop anything out, if you know what I mean, and a bunch of maxi pads. Just to prepare for the worst. I felt terrible for having to bring all of this to work but I really have no idea what to expect in case I do end up miscarrying on my own. So anyone with any info feel free to speak up.
I know some people would rather miscarry on their own but waiting weeks for my body to give up the pregnancy is just not my cup of tea. I'd much rather have a D&C and have the remains tested in a nice sterile place. My doctor last time was very specific in letting me know that she always makes certain to not get everything as she says "super squeaky clean" down there so that I won't have a hard time building up my lining again. And I would assume that she would do the same for any others in the future. So I'm pretty much praying if I do need one that maybe next weekend or even Monday (MLK day) it can happen and I can hang tight until then. Last time they had to give me one since I was almost carrying it for 4 weeks and my body just wouldn't give it up.
Anyways I called my ob this morning because quite frankly after I saw the very little spotting I thought I would have a ton the rest of the day and I was wondering if I should even renew my progesterone prescription which I have to get from a special pharmacist who isn't even open on the weekend. They told me to definitely continue taking it and that they'll compare the two betas (although not a pair) as soon as they come in...and that they still expect to see me at my ultrasound on Friday. I liked that because they sounded not so flippant about the whole situation and sounded like they did not want to jump to conclusions on a situation that even looks quite obvious to me.
Luckily work was crazy busy for me today and I didn't really have time to think about it, except at lunch when I went to get my beta done and I had to sit and stare at the 6...yes count them 6. Pregnant women that came in a varying points to have their glucose and blood done. All I could think of was that God was playing a very cruel joke on me. I know the blood technician remembered me from last time and was very quiet. Sort of like she knew...or maybe I just was thinking that in my head.
So for now I at least have a plan. I'm going to continue taking my progesterone just as told; I called the pharmacist and he even told me that he would be there for about an hour working on Saturday and I could come in and he would help me, which was extremely thoughtful. I think he's used to the patients that come in needing the progesterone and know what an extremely delicate situation they are in. And that made me feel better too.
Well although only 10:30p I think I'm going to be off to bed. This has all made me really tired. (wouldn't it be great if it was because I was still pregnant). I think I might have a really long weekend ahead of me.
Anyways I soon realized after my last post that I very well may not be able to start a month after, depending upon my cycle and also as you guys pointed out my hcg level. Last time I didn't get that tested but I think I'll request one just to make sure I'm back down. Especially if I miscarry at home, which I think in that case my doctor would demand one and an ultra sound anyway just to make sure everything is out.
I completely agree about the whole chemical pregnancy and thought about that too and wondered if that was the case why wouldn't it have been done with already. Maybe the Progesterone is causing things to get out of whack? Who knows.
Anyways I definitely would do things differently next time and request blood tests from the beginning. I just wasn't really concerned this time about the hcg because last time my problem wasn't my hcg but rather my progesterone, which is why my ob suggested I start taking it as soon as I get a positive. But obviously every pregnancy is different. I know my ob would give me tests if I requested them. She's actually really great but this time somehow my GP got involved and obviously it's not really her area.
So here's the update thus far...
Got up this morning and I found a very very very small amount of brown spotting. So of course I thought I was doomed. Still no cramping. Throughout the entire day though not a spec more of spotting though...and some twinges here and there but no real cramping. Just in case I packed myself a little "emergency" package of a towel, unused urine sampling cup (don't know how I got this but I had an extra lying around the house) for any remains, a plastic spoon in case I had to scoop anything out, if you know what I mean, and a bunch of maxi pads. Just to prepare for the worst. I felt terrible for having to bring all of this to work but I really have no idea what to expect in case I do end up miscarrying on my own. So anyone with any info feel free to speak up.
I know some people would rather miscarry on their own but waiting weeks for my body to give up the pregnancy is just not my cup of tea. I'd much rather have a D&C and have the remains tested in a nice sterile place. My doctor last time was very specific in letting me know that she always makes certain to not get everything as she says "super squeaky clean" down there so that I won't have a hard time building up my lining again. And I would assume that she would do the same for any others in the future. So I'm pretty much praying if I do need one that maybe next weekend or even Monday (MLK day) it can happen and I can hang tight until then. Last time they had to give me one since I was almost carrying it for 4 weeks and my body just wouldn't give it up.
Anyways I called my ob this morning because quite frankly after I saw the very little spotting I thought I would have a ton the rest of the day and I was wondering if I should even renew my progesterone prescription which I have to get from a special pharmacist who isn't even open on the weekend. They told me to definitely continue taking it and that they'll compare the two betas (although not a pair) as soon as they come in...and that they still expect to see me at my ultrasound on Friday. I liked that because they sounded not so flippant about the whole situation and sounded like they did not want to jump to conclusions on a situation that even looks quite obvious to me.
Luckily work was crazy busy for me today and I didn't really have time to think about it, except at lunch when I went to get my beta done and I had to sit and stare at the 6...yes count them 6. Pregnant women that came in a varying points to have their glucose and blood done. All I could think of was that God was playing a very cruel joke on me. I know the blood technician remembered me from last time and was very quiet. Sort of like she knew...or maybe I just was thinking that in my head.
So for now I at least have a plan. I'm going to continue taking my progesterone just as told; I called the pharmacist and he even told me that he would be there for about an hour working on Saturday and I could come in and he would help me, which was extremely thoughtful. I think he's used to the patients that come in needing the progesterone and know what an extremely delicate situation they are in. And that made me feel better too.
Well although only 10:30p I think I'm going to be off to bed. This has all made me really tired. (wouldn't it be great if it was because I was still pregnant). I think I might have a really long weekend ahead of me.
Thursday, January 10, 2008
6 Weeks...Pregnancy? What Pregnancy?
First off thank you so much everyone for your comments and advice on my last post. I really really appreciate it. I really love when even new posters post something. I welcome all advice since I'm rather new at this.
Today I had a very odd conversation with my GP. She basically said that indeed my level was 39 and that was very low and that it really doesn't register as a pregnancy. Now mind you she said this after explaining that less than 5 means a negative and less than 10 means you are menopausal. Uh okay so 39 is higher than both of those so how does that make me not pregnant (at one point in time at least).
Let's get this straight. I took 4 hpts all positive of some varying degree of darkness (or lightness if you will). I still have not had AF. I had some pregnancy symptoms and I have a hcg level of higher than 10. And my temperature has stayed high. If it sounds like a duck, and looks like a duck I would venture to say, it's a friggen duck. Am I right on this?
She started talking about me possibly having (4 - from 2 different brands - all from different batches) false positives. And that what we are dealing with is possibly not a pregnancy. I couldn't understand if she was beating around the bush and not wanting to say I miscarried or if she was trying to suggest menopause. Which at my age is highly unlikely. But I guess there's always that freak girl out there. So I asked her. And she said "oh no! Highly unlikely at your age". So what exactly do I have here I tried to ask? Or rather what do you think I have here? I know what I do have...a most likely non-viable pregnancy. But what do YOU think I have? I was quite interested. Anyways she never answered but just said that after the next blood test we will know what she will be referring me to my obgyn for. Uh, thanks but I never needed a reference since I already have an appt. 1 week from tomorrow.
I did ask her though why I need to wait til Monday and she said I didn't have to I can take it tomorrow. As some of you mentioned this will not be a pair but it will be at least something. So strange. But I guess this my friends, is why you see an obgyn for these purposes. Keep the GPs to keep generally practicing.
Anyways, to update you I am sad to report that my breasts do feel less tender...although still just a touch, but that might be the progesterone. I generally feel less pregnant today although that might be psychological but I doubt it.
My goal here is, if there is a slight chance that my blood test tomorrow does not skyrocket and throw all of us off to possibly be scheduled for a D&C (who knew my title would be such a part of my life) next Saturday. Do doctors work Saturdays? I hope so...because then I can recover over the 3 day weekend. If not I need to come up with an excuse at work to skip work and it could be ugly. Oh well. Hmmm maybe I can go with this idea of some mystery illness (since after all my gp seems to think I don't have a pregnancy). I'm going into surgery I'll say, for something; we don't know what; I don't feel sick; but there's something in me and we need to take it out. How weird.
Meanwhile, back at the ranch, I've ordered another $200 of progesterone just in case. Lovely. Well at least I'll have it on hand for next time. Which brings me to another topic. In case you were wondering. Yes, we haven't had enough pain yet...we are going to continue trying. Although somedays I regret even having started.
And so I'll have a lot of questions for my obgyn since we are now in the smaller percentage of 2 miscarriages. I'm hoping that this one qualifies for testing.
Meg if you're reading this, I will now be following your posts very closely; since I want to go through the same type of testing based on what they find if I do have to have a D&C.
I do know a couple of things though. 1) I will want a grilled cheese for my first meal after my d&c. I'm declaring it the official D&C food. 2) I do not plan to wait 2 months to try again. At the most one. 3) I'm going to be pounding ff.com like a fiend. And am going to make sure I get perfect scores every month trying. 4) I am going to get pregnant again. BRING IT ON. I'm ready.
Today I had a very odd conversation with my GP. She basically said that indeed my level was 39 and that was very low and that it really doesn't register as a pregnancy. Now mind you she said this after explaining that less than 5 means a negative and less than 10 means you are menopausal. Uh okay so 39 is higher than both of those so how does that make me not pregnant (at one point in time at least).
Let's get this straight. I took 4 hpts all positive of some varying degree of darkness (or lightness if you will). I still have not had AF. I had some pregnancy symptoms and I have a hcg level of higher than 10. And my temperature has stayed high. If it sounds like a duck, and looks like a duck I would venture to say, it's a friggen duck. Am I right on this?
She started talking about me possibly having (4 - from 2 different brands - all from different batches) false positives. And that what we are dealing with is possibly not a pregnancy. I couldn't understand if she was beating around the bush and not wanting to say I miscarried or if she was trying to suggest menopause. Which at my age is highly unlikely. But I guess there's always that freak girl out there. So I asked her. And she said "oh no! Highly unlikely at your age". So what exactly do I have here I tried to ask? Or rather what do you think I have here? I know what I do have...a most likely non-viable pregnancy. But what do YOU think I have? I was quite interested. Anyways she never answered but just said that after the next blood test we will know what she will be referring me to my obgyn for. Uh, thanks but I never needed a reference since I already have an appt. 1 week from tomorrow.
I did ask her though why I need to wait til Monday and she said I didn't have to I can take it tomorrow. As some of you mentioned this will not be a pair but it will be at least something. So strange. But I guess this my friends, is why you see an obgyn for these purposes. Keep the GPs to keep generally practicing.
Anyways, to update you I am sad to report that my breasts do feel less tender...although still just a touch, but that might be the progesterone. I generally feel less pregnant today although that might be psychological but I doubt it.
My goal here is, if there is a slight chance that my blood test tomorrow does not skyrocket and throw all of us off to possibly be scheduled for a D&C (who knew my title would be such a part of my life) next Saturday. Do doctors work Saturdays? I hope so...because then I can recover over the 3 day weekend. If not I need to come up with an excuse at work to skip work and it could be ugly. Oh well. Hmmm maybe I can go with this idea of some mystery illness (since after all my gp seems to think I don't have a pregnancy). I'm going into surgery I'll say, for something; we don't know what; I don't feel sick; but there's something in me and we need to take it out. How weird.
Meanwhile, back at the ranch, I've ordered another $200 of progesterone just in case. Lovely. Well at least I'll have it on hand for next time. Which brings me to another topic. In case you were wondering. Yes, we haven't had enough pain yet...we are going to continue trying. Although somedays I regret even having started.
And so I'll have a lot of questions for my obgyn since we are now in the smaller percentage of 2 miscarriages. I'm hoping that this one qualifies for testing.
Meg if you're reading this, I will now be following your posts very closely; since I want to go through the same type of testing based on what they find if I do have to have a D&C.
I do know a couple of things though. 1) I will want a grilled cheese for my first meal after my d&c. I'm declaring it the official D&C food. 2) I do not plan to wait 2 months to try again. At the most one. 3) I'm going to be pounding ff.com like a fiend. And am going to make sure I get perfect scores every month trying. 4) I am going to get pregnant again. BRING IT ON. I'm ready.
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
Freaking out - Please please don't let this happen again
Okay so Monday (I see I never posted about this) I had to have a follow up with my GP about some issue that I already knew about and during this follow up I told her I was pregnant and she ordered up a blood test for me even though my ob/gyn said she didn't need one. So I went ahead and took it on Monday 1/7.
Today the doctor's office calls me and says that my hcg levels were low and that the doctor would like me to go in for another test on Monday (why wait til Monday I have no idea). I asked what the number was.
It was 39. At 5 weeks 4 days.
Just 39. Not 39000. Not 3900. Just 39.
That's a fucking age...not an hcg level! What is wrong!!!!! I know I shouldn't freak out because stress is bad for the baby. But what does this mean???? Does it mean I have an ectopic? Does it mean I'm going to miscarry? I've had absolutely no cramping or bleeding. What the hell!!!!!
I barely made it through the last part of my work day and thoughts have been fleeting through my mind like a mad woman. How am I going to handle this AGAIN. How am I going to get out of work AGAIN withouth having anyone know. Not to mention I now have a new boss (great another one I can cry in front of). I'm trying to remain calm but I can't seem to get a grip.
I called my ob/gyn and they said to wait to take the monday test and they will go ahead and take a look at both results.
Meanwhile I've found this by searching dr. google: http://www.americanpregnancy.org/duringpregnancy/hcglevels.html
It says for 5 weeks I can be anywhere from 18 - 7,340
but then for 6 weeks it says one can be from 1,080 - 56,500
Now how in the world is someone with let's say 18 at 5 weeks supposed to get to 1,080 in a week????? Am I not understanding this chart or something? Does anyone have any input on this??? It's supposed to double every 48 hours or something right? I did the math. At 39 I would need more than a week to get to 1,080. Then of course they say to not dwell on the actual number but rather if it's doubling properly.
And should I go ahead and wait til Monday for the next blood test? Or just take it tomorrow? What would you do?
Today the doctor's office calls me and says that my hcg levels were low and that the doctor would like me to go in for another test on Monday (why wait til Monday I have no idea). I asked what the number was.
It was 39. At 5 weeks 4 days.
Just 39. Not 39000. Not 3900. Just 39.
That's a fucking age...not an hcg level! What is wrong!!!!! I know I shouldn't freak out because stress is bad for the baby. But what does this mean???? Does it mean I have an ectopic? Does it mean I'm going to miscarry? I've had absolutely no cramping or bleeding. What the hell!!!!!
I barely made it through the last part of my work day and thoughts have been fleeting through my mind like a mad woman. How am I going to handle this AGAIN. How am I going to get out of work AGAIN withouth having anyone know. Not to mention I now have a new boss (great another one I can cry in front of). I'm trying to remain calm but I can't seem to get a grip.
I called my ob/gyn and they said to wait to take the monday test and they will go ahead and take a look at both results.
Meanwhile I've found this by searching dr. google: http://www.americanpregnancy.org/duringpregnancy/hcglevels.html
It says for 5 weeks I can be anywhere from 18 - 7,340
but then for 6 weeks it says one can be from 1,080 - 56,500
Now how in the world is someone with let's say 18 at 5 weeks supposed to get to 1,080 in a week????? Am I not understanding this chart or something? Does anyone have any input on this??? It's supposed to double every 48 hours or something right? I did the math. At 39 I would need more than a week to get to 1,080. Then of course they say to not dwell on the actual number but rather if it's doubling properly.
And should I go ahead and wait til Monday for the next blood test? Or just take it tomorrow? What would you do?
Monday, January 7, 2008
Inching Along...and symptoms for 5weeks 4 days
Time seems to be just draggggggggggggging. Ugh. My days are pretty much various freaking out episodes (no thanks to dr. google - yes I know I shouldn't have but I did) and trying to be happy about my situation. How will I ever get through 9 months? Hopefully this will get better as things move along. And hopefully I won't have a panic attack every time I have to go to the hospital where my doctor's office is located. Tonight I had to go to the pharmacy there to get a refund on my progesterone (thanks to winning at cigna's "game") since my doctor cleared it for coverage. Yay for me a savings of about $150. Anyways I just felt so completely depressed being there not that I hadn't been there since my dreaded visit when I found out that I miscarried but strangely enough this visit brought back all those terrible memories. I think I just need to take 1 day at a time and work through these things and work with my head to calm down.
Maybe listing these every few days will help me relax. I tend to relax more when I make lists...hmmm isn't that strange.
5 Week symptoms:
Maybe listing these every few days will help me relax. I tend to relax more when I make lists...hmmm isn't that strange.
5 Week symptoms:
- breast tenderness never really went away and came back a little stronger now that I'm back from my winter weekend. Maybe it was the freezing weather that was causing numbness and that's why I couldn't feel much tenderness :)
- slight dull headache today - of course this could be connected to the progesterone; it's so hard to tell.
- burping - not major but a little more than I would say I normally do.
- stuffy nose - still have a slight case of this
- food craving? Don't know if this is me or the little one but I've been on this Greek/Lebanese food kick. I can't get enough baba ganoush...what the hell? It could be me though...
Friday, January 4, 2008
5 Weeks 1 Day...Greetings from Snowy Lake Tahoe
I can't believe I missed the 5 day mark yesterday. Of course it might have been because I was so nervous about flying in this hellish weather Nevada is having. I'm up visiting my dad right now in the worst snow storm they've had in awhile. Which doesn't normally bother me at all but I'm just a little nervous about putting anything in jeopardy right now. But I've none so many other mothers that flew during this time their first trimester and all seemed to be fine.
Of course I also checked with my doctor and she said it was fine to go as long as I wasn't spotting (knocking on wood) and I haven't yet...(knocking on wood again).
Which actually is part of the reason I've gone off in concern land again because quite frankly I'm not feeling nearly as much cramping and movement down there as I did last time (a good thing?). Honestly I just don't feel much of anything. During the day when I'm up and around I feel just like it would be any other non-pregnant day only if I'm really still at night do I find a few more gas bubbles and an occasionally twinge but that's pretty much it. And to top it all off my breast tenderness has been lessened. Definitely not gone but definitely not as much. Of course I've ready a million things on the Internet about how some people have this but due to the fact that this was pretty much my only pregnancy symptom beyond not getting AF it has completely freaked me out a little. I find my self doing random breast tenderness checks whenever I can and just hope I don't do one accidentally in public making people thinking I'm a complete freak. Ugh.
So that's basically the update on my end. I have two agonizing weeks until my appt. with my Ob/gyn and I'm still dutifully taking my progesterone each morning (luckily none was confiscated on my flight over (lucky for them!) Hopefully this will do the trick this time. I just still wish there was some sign that all is going well...like your belly button lighting up or something. Now that would be helpful.
Of course I also checked with my doctor and she said it was fine to go as long as I wasn't spotting (knocking on wood) and I haven't yet...(knocking on wood again).
Which actually is part of the reason I've gone off in concern land again because quite frankly I'm not feeling nearly as much cramping and movement down there as I did last time (a good thing?). Honestly I just don't feel much of anything. During the day when I'm up and around I feel just like it would be any other non-pregnant day only if I'm really still at night do I find a few more gas bubbles and an occasionally twinge but that's pretty much it. And to top it all off my breast tenderness has been lessened. Definitely not gone but definitely not as much. Of course I've ready a million things on the Internet about how some people have this but due to the fact that this was pretty much my only pregnancy symptom beyond not getting AF it has completely freaked me out a little. I find my self doing random breast tenderness checks whenever I can and just hope I don't do one accidentally in public making people thinking I'm a complete freak. Ugh.
So that's basically the update on my end. I have two agonizing weeks until my appt. with my Ob/gyn and I'm still dutifully taking my progesterone each morning (luckily none was confiscated on my flight over (lucky for them!) Hopefully this will do the trick this time. I just still wish there was some sign that all is going well...like your belly button lighting up or something. Now that would be helpful.
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
Happy 2008!
Happy New Year everyone!
FINALLY. I can't wait to leave 2007 behind.
New Year's Eve was quite uneventful for us, which was perfectly fine with me! We were supposed to go out with another couple for dinner and then possibly a movie or over to a party but at the last minute we found out that the husband of the couple's mother just passed away and neither of them really even felt like going to dinner. So it was just the hubster and I at our dinner reservation which was very much fine. We had a nice dinner at our favorite Japanese restaurant and talked about our New Year's Eve resolutions. Which all pretty much seemed similar... And so since I find it important to list them and check back a year later I will post them here. After dinner both of us went straight home and got into our PJs. I'm embarrassed to say that we did not make it to staying up til midnight...but we did have our happy new year's kiss in our super comfy bed at 11:30p and were both so very happy that we weren't off partying somewhere else. I guess we truly are ready to throw in the party towel and have a child if we actually feel more comfortable hitting the sheets or even your sofa than a party, on New Years Eve :)
Our New Year's 2008 resolutions:
FINALLY. I can't wait to leave 2007 behind.
New Year's Eve was quite uneventful for us, which was perfectly fine with me! We were supposed to go out with another couple for dinner and then possibly a movie or over to a party but at the last minute we found out that the husband of the couple's mother just passed away and neither of them really even felt like going to dinner. So it was just the hubster and I at our dinner reservation which was very much fine. We had a nice dinner at our favorite Japanese restaurant and talked about our New Year's Eve resolutions. Which all pretty much seemed similar... And so since I find it important to list them and check back a year later I will post them here. After dinner both of us went straight home and got into our PJs. I'm embarrassed to say that we did not make it to staying up til midnight...but we did have our happy new year's kiss in our super comfy bed at 11:30p and were both so very happy that we weren't off partying somewhere else. I guess we truly are ready to throw in the party towel and have a child if we actually feel more comfortable hitting the sheets or even your sofa than a party, on New Years Eve :)
Our New Year's 2008 resolutions:
- Carry a healthy baby to term (that was mine and his was something similar)
- Buy a house (this is all pending the lovely California housing market)
- Order our wedding album (this was on my last year's list...maybe this year it will get done)
- And for my husband finishing a book he is working on.
A small list but some things are rather a tall order. So we'll see how things go but I have every intention to try my darnedest to get these successfully accomplished. May the force be with me and may 2008 bring all of us our greatest wishes!
Now I'm off to pack for my trip to my dad's. Leaving tomorrow morning, but I'll be bringing my laptop so that I can log on from time to time and post :) I hear it's going to be rather snowy over in the Lake Tahoe area in the next couple of days so we'll see how much computer time I will have!
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