25 Weeks - Happy New Year

So, I've been trying to post for what seems like forever but work has been so busy that I just can't seem to muster up the energy to write a post at night. Now that the holidays are behind us maybe there will be more time. Except that this week seems to be just as busy.

Which reminds me...hope everyone had a good one...or at least one they got through. The holidays remind me so much of past years of hardships where my situation was not as good as it is this year and so I feel for those out there that may be still waiting for their ship to come in. Not that it gets any better once you are at 25 weeks. It will always be on my mind...until the day I deliver. Last year I was cautiously elated about finally getting a 2nd BFP. Only to find out 8 weeks later I would soon be miscarrying. And on and on it went.

So although I had limited energy this year and decided to not do the whole big tree extravaganza thing like I do each year I sort of made it a holiday of remembrance for me and all those people out there who like me have had hard earned hope during the holidays. Thus the two pictures I'm posting.

This first picture is one of our tree. Much smaller than usual. And I must admit I had intended to get something a tad larger than this but found myself scrambling at the last minute. Mr. Sushinut begged for me to get a "small" tree this year so I wouldn't have to go through the trouble of taking it down and putting it up. And so this was our "coffee table tree". As you can see I couldn't be bothered taking out many ornaments either...or rather the tree branches were so delicate they didn't hold much weight. You may be wondering, "hey what's with the butterflies, sushinut?". Well here's a little something that I don't think I've mentioned before here. For whatever reason with this pregnancy from the very beginning I've been seeing butterflies everywhere. (Most likely because it was summer time, when I first got pregnant). But even as fall came and winter set in I've still been seeing them. And at the most unusual times. It seems that whenever I'm feeling concerned about the nuggets I will look out my office window and see a butterfly just fluttering outside. Or when I'm on my way to an appt. (like the amnio) I'll say to myself...If I see a butterfly on the way I'll know it's going to be okay. And each time I have...and each time it has been okay. So call it coincidence...call it spring...call it an extended freak of nature that we have butterflies in winter here. But it's sort of become my thing if you will. And so I purchased some adorable clip on butterfly ornaments especially in honor of the nuggets. In hopes that this coming spring they will blossom into butterflies themselves.

Next is a picture of my attempt at positive thinking one early December day when I found two small cute stockings, one girlish and one boyish and went out on a limb and purchased them for our mantel. As I was prepping them for hanging...I thought "Boy am I setting myself up for disappointment". But I carried on and hung them with care. Even as I put them away in my storage boxes after the new year I wondered if I would find them again next year with a smile on my face and two little ones crawling near by...or would it be utter heart break. I tell you...it just never gets easier. Or maybe I'm just the only loser that dwells on these things.

And so that was my holiday...for New Year's mr. Sushinut and I spent a great time having dinner with some close friends. I splurged on lobster as they splurged on champagne. And mr. sushinut and I returned back home before midnight to celebrate a quiet New Year's eve together. It was relaxing and just what I wanted.

As for my current status. We've had some major stretching pains lately. If feels as if I've gone to the gym and worked too hard on the inner thigh machine. Is this normal?

My last appt. with the OB and Perinatologist all went fine. The nuggets seem to be on target with measurements. With the girl weighing in at 1.5 oz and the boy at 1.6oz. This was of course at about 22/23 weeks I think. So hopefully all has been going well since then. Their heartbeats were about 148 for the girl and 143 for the boy. I guess in this case it is true as I've read that girls have faster heart rates.

Besides having a horrendous mid back pain which then moves to my front and feels like I have a bad case of sunburn if I sit for too long....or feeling like my stomach is going to fall off if I stand too long, I haven't been in too bad shape. But I can already feel the uncomfortableness of the 3rd trimester setting in. It's been harder and harder to sleep comfortably especially on my left side for the whole night like my ob requested. And I honestly don't know how women with twins in the 3rd trimester get out of bed or flip to the other side. I feel like an elephant trying to now. Not to mention that the shoe tying business is getting trickier and trickier by the day. But all of these things I would take on a hundred times over just to get to the end with the main prize. That's it...I just need to keep my eye on the prize I suppose.

So that's it for now, but I promise to post more this week to catch up with pictures etc. I feel I'm so behind on my blog that when I finally sit down to write I've forgotten half of what I would like to say.

Toodles for now.